Yeah it hurts. And it will hurt, for who knows how long. But remember, you are doing this for a reason. Carry on, no matter how badly you want to look back.
“Open your eyes, not just wider, but actually open them. To the world around you, the people, the opportunities. Whatever is hurting or burdening you, capture it in a breath and let it go. Look around, the world hasn’t stopped. Neither should you.”